Wednesdays workout

yeah yeah...I know...at least I got my butt in gear this week.
last week was my first week back to work and at a new job.
it was a very emotional week last week.
things are getting better.
I don't think it helped either that my sister was sending me pictures of little man while I was at work....
anyways, I did go running.
and outside!!!!
it felt amazing!
and, my hubby and baby came this time too!
my amazing sister(one of them anyways) gave us a jogger!
I didn't map it out before but I want to say it was about 2 to 2 1/2 miles.
up and downhill.
I'm running the Ogden half in a month and most of it is downhill.
you would think downhill would be easy...
running downhill uses different muscles.
I didn't train that well last year when I ran it, and I was 3 months pregnant, but I was hurting at about mile 6.
by the end I wanted to cry the back of my legs hurt so bad.
make sure you train for what type of terrain you are running.
I am also going to do my situps and pushups tonight before I go to bed.
I would do them right now but I'm making delicious New York steaks and steamed carrots with the hubby. :) enjoy your workouts and remember, your mind will talk you out of anything.
you can breath just fine.
your legs don't hurt.
just do it!

Tough Times...

I know I promised two workouts this week but it's been tough for me.

Remember this my post about "Working Mother?"

well....Here's the phone conversation.

Last Thursday I got this call from the amazing Jenny Dee:

Jenny: Is this Aubry?

Me: yes

Jenny: This is Jenny. How are you?

Me: *skeptical* good

Jenny: Great! Well, I just wanted to talk to you about the Mortgage Loan Processor position. We really love your personality, smile and spunk....(this is where I was expecting the BUT) and we'd like to offer you the position.

Me: .....

I honestly didn't know what to say.

I was up against someone who already has loan processing experience so I was prepared for the rejection call.

And I was ok with that.

There was another part time position that I could apply for.

Work mornings and have the rest of the day with my baby boy.

But that isn't how it turned out.

I was excited!

Really I was.

There isn't a job that I have interviewed for that I haven't gotten the position.

But then I hung up the phone and looked down at my baby boy in his swing smiling at his Mommy....

....and cried....

I knew what I was giving up but hoping it wouldn't come to this...

I knew what I was going to miss...

This is the hardest decision that I have ever made.

My dream since I was little was to be a stay-at-home Mom.

That was suppose to be my full-time job.

After thinking about my life and my plans, nothing that I have planned has ever worked out.

And I can add this to the list of things.

But there is a reason that I went back to work.

And Heavenly Father knows what is going to happen down the road and I'm suppose to have this job.

But it's so hard knowing that someone else is taking care of my baby.

Playing with my baby.

Seeing all the laughs and smiles

and all the firsts....

Monday was good because I was so busy learning everything.

It went all down hill from there.

My sister came and picked up Little Man and my other sister(who was watching him) and took them to play.

She kept sending me pictures while I was at work.

The only thing that I could think of was "I'm suppose to be there with my baby. I don't want to miss a thing"

I wish I could rewind and stop on my last day with Lyle and keep rewinding that day so it would never end.

I don't get home until 5:30 - 6 and by that time Lyle is fussy, tired, and hungry.

I do get some smiles but they don't last that long.

And depending on how he slept throughout the day, depends on if I get the laughs from him.

I know I get Saturdays and Sundays to be with him all day, but that just isn't enough for me.

This is seriously the hardest thing I've had to do so far in my life.

I wish I could play with him on the floor and watch him as he figures out how to roll around.

How he inspects his toys to find the best "chewing" spot.

Our dancing and singing around the kitchen to Children's Jack Johnson.

I just miss being with him all day.

I love my job and work with amazing people, but if I could I would stay at home forever.

If you are a stay-at-home Mom, don't take it for granted.

It is the best thing you will ever do.

And if you have to go back to work, I feel your pain.

If you choose to go back to work, props to ya!

I have sisters that chose to go back to work because they'd rather be there than at home with their brains oozing out of their heads.

And they are still great Mothers.

I will be OK at one point but right now it's pretty hard.

 and to add on top of it...Dee has been working two jobs and so sometimes I don't even see him.

That is really hard especially since these past few days all I've wanted to do is cry.

He gets up at 5:30 kisses me goodbye at 6, sometimes comes home to grab some food, comes home around 10:30 and I'm already asleep.

I know this isn't going to be a long term thing but I need my best friend right now.

I cherish every moment I have with my boys because it isn't that long during the week.

Or tomorrow since Dee with be working in Draper all day....

sheesh...

But I have my time with Lyle for two days and no one can take that away from me!

Love and cherish your family. I know I do!

I missed it..

<p>I know I know...I forgot yesterdays Wednesday's workout.<br>
this week had been so crazy and it's not over yet.
my best friend is getting married and I threw her a last minute bachelorette party yesterday..
tonight is her wedding dinner
tomorrow the wedding and ring ceremony
and Saturday my little sister is going through the temple!
and my sister and brother-in-law are staying at my house.
I promise that I will do two next week!
I need to bump it up anyways since now I am doing the Ogden half next month and then the Ragnar the next month.
I'll see you next week!

Wednesday's Workout

Today has been a little crazy.

I instantly became a Mother of three!

I'm helping out my sister and brother-in-law while my sister is in Texas for a conference.

It's their spring break so we are playing for the next three days.

Anyways, I haven't done any cardio yet but plan on going on at least a walk today when Little Man wakes up.

I have done those amazing squats that everybody loves so much.

Just to feel that burn in my muscles is amazing.

And try doing them with two kids jumping up on you!

It's even more fun! ;)

I didn't do regular squats though

I had my legs spread about two feet apart.

When you do a squat you want to make sure that your knees don't go over your toes.

It helps if you stick your butt out. 

If you feel the burn and also feel like a dork you are doing them right.

I also decided to do walking lunges since I have been chasing kids all day.

They are great because it requires you to move while you are doing them.

Again, make sure when you are going down into the lunge that your knee doesn't go over your toes.

If you wanted to add a little more to your walking lunge, lift your back leg up as you are standing up out of the lunge.

After you life up your back leg, bring it forward for your next lunge.

Do these all day as you are walking around the house and you will definitely feel it tomorrow in your back side. ;)

I think I am going to add my sit ups and pushups after my walk later too.

Get an all over workout.

Plus I was dead after last weeks workout and I need that especially if I am going to a desk job.

I need something to keep me in shape ;)

and I have a 1/2 marathon coming up plus the ragnar!

Woohoo!

I'm really excited for both and will start posting more about my runs hopefully next week.

My nephew needs money for the summer so I think I'll have him come watch Little Man at night and I'll hit the gym or go for a run around my neighborhood. 

 

 You are the only one that can make excuses for yourself.

It isn't anybody else' fault but yours.

Don't make excuses. Make improvements.

Happy Wednesday!

Working Mom?

Don't worry, I will still do my Wednesday's Workout.

I just have some stuff that I have to get out of my head and hopefully typing about it will get it out of my mind so I don't have to think about it.

I just got a call for a job interview.

I am having mixed feelings about it.

I was excited that I got the call for the interview just like I would be for any job I applied for.

But then I got off the phone and looked down at the sweet angel that was laying on my chest and a piece of my heart broke.

If I went back to work I would miss out on a lot of "firsts".

Even though I would still get to see them when I got home from work, most of his awake time I would be gone...

It's a full time position from 9 - 6.

And after I picked him up from daycare, I would only get about 1 1/2 to 2 hours of awake time.

It really is breaking my heart.

And even though this isn't a long term thing, only a year to 2 years, it's hard.

I love spending the day with my Little Man and watch him grow and learn about new things going on in this crazy world.

On the plus side, if I get this job, I will be able to finish my house, buy Little Man whatever I want, go on dates with my lover and vacations.

There are so many benefits of working.

So much more than not working.

But the parts that I will be missing are the most important...

To me they are anyways.

I have always wanted to be a stay at home Mom but things just aren't working out in my favor right now.

I have had any crying spells and know that I will have more.

(I swear I cry more after I had Lyle than before or during pregnancy)

I just have to realize that this is the thing I need to do right now.

I have prayed and prayed to be guided to where I need to be and what I needed to do.

And I knew that It would potentially be something that I didn't necessarily want to do at this time but it would be something that I needed to do to help out my family.

Everything that I am doing is for my sweet baby boy.

I know that everything will work out.

I just have to get past everything that I will miss and remember that it's all for him.

And to take less stress off Dee.

Right now I'll enjoy these sweet boys gummy smiles and contagious giggles!