Have Faith...

I found this quote at the beginning of the year and have it written where I can see it multiple times.

I really needed to read it.

A lot of things have been going on in my life that I am having the hardest time dealing with.

Sometimes I just want to give up and not try or fight anymore.

That would be the easy thing to do right?

Crawl into into a ball in bed and just sleep and watch netflix all night and day?

To me that would be easy.

It's how I've been feeling a lot lately.

Life gets to difficult sometimes.

Being a grown up is difficult period!

I wish I could go back to being little and the only thing that I cared about was who I was going to play with that day.

Right now there is only one thing that is helping me fight and not give up.

That is my Little Man in my belly.

It's crazy the love I have for my baby already. 

And he seems to know when I'm not having a good day.

He'll start to move and kick like crazy letting me know that he is here and I can't give up.

I can't wait to meet my Little Man in December. 

It is going to be the BEST Christmas ever!

But right now I have him to remind me of what I am fighting for.

Why I haven't given up yet.

I am going to just breath and have faith that everything will work out for the best.

Boy or Girl?

Yesterday was a roller coaster of emotions for both Dee and I.

Between being excited, upset, close to tears, trying to be patient...

we finally got to see our little baby!

Before this ultrasound, we have been through so much with my Dr. retiring and getting sent over to a new Dr.

Tech issues, got work off, had to reschedule my appointment, was able to talk them into getting me in yesterday....

It was pretty crazy.

I'm so glad that yesterday is over and I can enjoy the rest of the pregnancy hopefully without anymore Dr. issues.

I am going to make sure that my new Dr. isn't planning on retiring anytime soon.

The nurses and front desk staff are so cute and fun!

I was laughing with everyone I saw yesterday!

I'm really excited to meet the Dr. too!

He better live up to the "Hoellein" standards. ;)

Which pretty much means, all my sisters can be in the room when we deliver our baby.

And he can handle our "sass"

Ok...I doubt all my sisters will be in there but it's always a party in the delivery room with the Hoellein girls.

Ok...I guess I'll get down to the main reason for this post.

It's a....

We are soo excited!

I honestly don't know what I would do with a girl.

Yeah you can dress them up and they are adorable!

Don't get me wrong, I love my nieces to death!

But as they get older....they get the "attitude" that I can't deal with.

I always send my nieces to their parents when that comes out.

My nieces all wish that I was having a girl because they need more girl cousins.

There are 3 girls and 6 boys. 

Soon to be 7 :)

I'm so excited to be a Mom but it is still unreal to me.

I've finally come to terms with "I'm pregnant" but haven't come to terms that "it" is a Boy!

I'm having a Boy! Son! Monster! Little Man!! :)

I'm beyond excited and can/can't wait until December gets here!

Next item on the list...Buy a house!!!

We are starting that fun process in about a week! Woohoo!

And then I can put the nursery together and get everything for my Little Man's grande entrance! 

Here's the first picture of my Little Man's face

Half Way There!

Tomorrow is the big day!

I have my level 2 ultrasound where the check to make sure Baby B is growing healthy and strong.

Also....they tell us the gender of the baby! 

I am soo excited and cannot wait until tomorrow!

Unfortunately, I have to make it through 10 1/2 hours of work today and 3 hours tomorrow.

Today is going to be a really long day and tomorrow, even though it's only 3 hours, is going to be the longest 3 hours of my life.

That's ok. I will survive!

I have been feeling Baby B move so much lately!

It's been soo crazy!!

We went to Lava Hot Springs again over the weekend with the whole family!

It was a blast!

Sorry I have no pics.

My phone was completely dead and we forgot the camera.

But Todd took some with his awesome GoPro so when he gets those up I'll add them.

Anyways, one morning Baby B was moving a ton so I had my little niece Sadie put her hand where the baby was and it totally hit her hand! 

It was so cool!

Probably more cool for me than it was for Sadie. 

She's only 4 so I don't think she knew exactly what was going on.

But she said she felt it and then went and told her mom and dad.

And my sweet nephew Carter wanted to feel it to so he would put his hand on my tiny bump to feel baby move.

Baby didn't move for Carter but he did get to feel where the baby was sitting in my belly.

Baby B likes to sit at the very bottom of my belly and I swear it's right on top of my bladder because I have to pee so much when it sits there.

When we came home from Lava, baby was sitting down there so my belly was hard and Carter got to feel it.

It was so much fun to watch his curious face put his hand on my belly and feel the baby.

When he felt it he had a look of like, "wow! This is soo cool!" on his face.

It was awesome!

Dev has even been able to feel baby kick and move.

My favorite is when Baby starts doing flips and somersaults!

That is the coolest feeling ever!

Everytime it happens it feels like I'm feeling it for the first time!

I love it so much!

20 weeks....half way there.

This has gone by so fast and December will be here before I know it.

I'll take pics of tomorrow and how we tell everyone! 

I'm excited for that as well!

Snow Baby Coming December

Baby Update

This last weekend was really cool.
Baby B actually hit my hand twice!
It was the coolest feeling ever!
Dee tried to feel it but the movements right now aren't that constant cuz baby is still growing strong bones.
And he didn't have the patience to sit there until the next time baby kicked.
He'll feel it soon though.
Our appointment is next Wednesday (the 25th)!
We are soo excited!
To make it fun and include family and friends, we are taking bets on what the gender is going to be.
The people who guess the correct gender will be entered into a drawing for movie tickets, restaurant gift card, etc.
We are so excited!
To tell our parents, we are going to have a pink and blue balloon and both of us will have a pin...
hehehe
We are both going to go up to pop the balloon but only one of us will.
It's going to be so much fun!
For my sisters, since they all live up north and that's where our appointment is, we are going to tie the color of the gender to their car or maybe even deliver it personally.
I am going to come up with a cute poem or something that says we are either keeping the trend going of having a boy first, or breaking the trend and having a girl.
Next Wednesday is going to be so much fun!

Yesterday I was getting ready for work, putting lotion on my belly, when I looked down at my belly button.
It wasn't mine!!!!
Ok, it really was but the top has started to poke out!
This is how the conversation went with Dee:

Me: Dee!! This is not my belly button!!!
Dee: Yes it is babe
Me: No it's not!! My belly button doesn't poke out!
Dee: That is your belly button
Me: They don't usually start poking out until you are like, 7 or 8 months!
Dee: *Laughing* Maybe you'll be done sooner ;)

He was talking about when you bake a turkey you have the red thing that pokes out when it's done.
It was so funny!
And my belly button is still poking out.
But only the top part of it.
The bottom part is still how it is suppose to be.
I'm hoping that as my belly continues to grow that it will flatten out again and not poke out until I'm farther along.
I guess that is only 2 - 3 months away!
I can't believe how quick everything flies by!!
I will be 20 weeks, 5 months, on Sunday!!
December is going to be here before we know it!
And I'll have snowbaby and be a mommy!
AAHHH!!
It's sooo exciting but yet nerve wrecking at the same time!
My life is going to change, for the good, in December.
Whether I'm ready or not for it, it is going to happen.

Pregnancy Post

I decided I would write a little about being pregnant.

I have been really lucky and haven't been sick that much.

Maybe 2 weeks tops. 

I have been more tired and will pass out for an hour or two when I get home from work and be just fine when bedtime comes around.

The only thing that I am having a hard time with....weight...

I've never liked gaining weight and would freak out if I even gained anything over 5 pounds.

I know...I shouldn't worry.

That's how I am and have always been.

I've been active as long as I can remember playing soccer and running.

Being pregnant has totally slowed that down.

I haven't run in a while and miss it so bad.

I did run a 5k with the Heslop's on the 4th and know that I could totally do it still.

The thing is...we got up to run at 5:30 am.

I am getting ready for work then.

And when I get home from work I'm pooped and take a nap instead.

I finally gave in today and bought a pregnancy workout dvd.

Maybe I'll have enough motivation throughout this week to workout a little.

But the couch...mmm...it looks so good when I get home from work.

and so dang comfortable.

Back to the reason I'm blogging...

Right now I'm suppose to be gaining an average of two pounds a week

2 POUNDS!!!

I know it's for the baby but I still don't feel pregnant.

I'm still at the "fat" stage.

I'm not saying I am fat. not at all.

I just feel fat.

My belly doesn't say "pregnant" just yet.

Maybe the weight gain and body changes will be easier when it actually looks like I have a baby in my tummy.

Dee and I went to Gymboree today just to look around.

It's so hard not to know what we are having just yet.

We both are wanting to buy things like crazy.

It was so much fun to look at everything though.

When all the summer clothes go on sale we will be able to buy for next year.

I'm so excited!

Too bad they don't have winter clothes on sale.

I don't want to spend too much money on winter clothes for our Snowbaby. 

And these are just too dang cute.

Two and a half more weeks until we find out! :) 

can't wait!

New Digs

I have some more updates to do that are before this but I just figured out how to make a collage on my phone.

And...

I'm really excited because I'm moving up in the world. 

Just a little anyways.

I don't have a picture of my desk when I first started but it looked something like this:

No space. 

It really felt like we were on top of each other.

After the remodel, we went to more spacious desk and now...

I'm in a nice L-shaped desk! 

and there is a printer between my co-worker and I to use. 

So nice.. :)

I'm loving the space.

I have a Payson and Lava update to do. 

As well as 4th of July update but you'll have to wait until I get home so I can have access to all my photos.

HAPPY FRIDAY!